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http://moonglow359mamba.vox.com/library/post/state-of-mind-composed-from-hope.html
Yeah I read 1/3 of it when I was trying to figure out which one of you freaks was stalking me.
So yeah right now, I was thinking about my state of mind that had a bunch of hope in the past.
SO , I won't be much going on about vg roots right now, but just wanted to write this down:
I used to be full of hope and happiness in actually finding the video.
Was pretty confident for YEARS that I'm gonna get it, somehow , by myself, like looking on it on the internet.
The stupid phrase that someone told me ages ago was 'Everything is on the internet, what is not , it doesn't exist'
I used this motto for a year.
I actually started searching for it in 2005. After around 1.2 year of having Markus repeatedly letting me down about it, always shit like ' I can't find it' 'Next time I'm in Slovenia I'll bring it' , so at that time I was completely hypnotized by this event (seeing the video). My main goal in life was this, as tbh, I thought I won't need to do anything in life anymore. What I saw was sooo soo amazing and incredible, I knew if this was going out It'd be huge , just huge. But yeah lol, what a huge fuck up by my side!
Took me around 3 years to understand , that NOBODY has this video, or better nobody that has it will give it to me out of the blue. A huge waste of time. But there was hope. I knew it was going to change my life completely so the vision of obtaining the video was so much in my head imprinted i could not get it out no way.
But yeah with time I saw absolutely nobody knows this video,nobody has it. Secret is the word.
IT feels teeeeeeeeeerrible to be part of this.
My soul is crying, my heart is bleeding, I got manipulated , backstabbed by people whom I trusted.
The hope is slowly fading away. Even if it never dies, even if I'll think about it everyday, nothing will change.
There was still a feeling of 'going to happen' when the event wasn't that far away 'timely speaking'. The memories were much more fresh and my underconscience was completely not with me, but there inside me having the video stored.
I did something wrong, I have no idea who is behind it.
I wish this would never happen
you know, my life is a huge fail since I've seen that video, and I all blame it on that stupid motherfucker from Austria.
How fucking cruel. What have I done to him????
Honestly those years, 2003. When we went for Wien, the feeling was so so weird all the time, like there is something going to happen. Probably the most intense month in my life. Everything was so fucking weird, the general feel was like somekind of 'new horizons'.
This is sooooo soo much eating me inside, and it hurts me that I'm so alone in knowing the truth.
Deep inside me I think it is meant to be that I'll get to know the truth someday.
so yeah....
sup sup.
What I wanted to say is , that the hope is fading away ! So I now just think how badly I got screwed.
Just thinking 'holy shit it's been 7 years since I've seen it, 7 fucking years and still the thing is my mind'
FML, seriously.
sso..
On the other side trying to sort my life.
But yeah hah, it's all connected. How can you actually function normally after all this stupid shit?
You have to, nobody cares about your story.
Your doc thinks you're mad and your story is just like some other skitzo story they've heard over the years.
Sup bro?
Srsly. I don't blame anyone not believing or understanding. But it's wrong.
Man I'm going to do something about it.
I'm going to get the new number of M. and call him again and just repeat the same shit 'sup with the video'.
I'll go work anything just to get the money to try do something legally about it, even if it sounds like a huge utopia.
I was so much a dIFFERENT person before going to Austria!
VG ROOTS
s...
Going to sort it out, keep fighting, not give up. More the time goes by, MORE EPIC THE DAY WILL BE WHEN THE TRUTH WILL BE OUT.
I am though motherfucker dude, if you thought I was going to kill myself or whatever thing , you're wrong. I am still here and I'll get the truth, and when I'll have the truth, you will be in HUGE huge trouble. You will pay.
Hilariously insane
-Fifty50-
03.03.2010, 20:29
I feel bad for him if that's what his life is really like.
salomonskater
03.03.2010, 20:42
I bet vg roots really exists and one day he will find it and will be like "told ya, matherfackarzzzz" and everybody is going to be like :shock: shock: :shock: :shock:
jonathan
03.03.2010, 20:44
Yeah I read 1/3 of it when I was trying to figure out which one of you freaks was stalking me.
... you should probably stop talking to him.
Devon Avant
03.03.2010, 20:45
i remember hearing about that video or seeing an ad for it. it was supposed to have all the best tricks and unseen tricks from the vg's and i thought it was supposed to be two separate vids.
... you should probably stop talking to him.
I did.
I'm exaggerating when I say stalking.
It was still weird though.
:bran^don:
03.03.2010, 20:52
best post 2010
Shhwing4
03.03.2010, 20:55
it is just a fucking video. he should learn not to care about material possessions (sp) not saying that i don't, but it is making him a coo coo
calish4rk
03.03.2010, 20:56
i was just bored so i typed that down
and c minor we dont really talk do we. its like i hit u up 2 or 3 times cuz i thought its weird u are the gf of that stupid freak called jonathan haha
go put something in ur ass again .. lawl
GAY
fuck you it's real... i've seen it.
i was just bored so i typed that down
and c minor we dont really talk do we. its like i hit u up 2 or 3 times cuz i thought its weird u are the gf of that stupid freak called jonathan haha
go put something in ur ass again .. lawl
GAY
fuck you it's real... i've seen it.
You're the one who typed me cryptic messages about my hair.
That's fucking weird.
Turnip Head
03.03.2010, 21:13
I've been reading House of Leaves.
VG Roots is essentially The Navidson Record. Madness is going to consume us all.
I heard that he makes out with guys!
Turnip Head
03.03.2010, 21:15
I heard that he makes out with guys!
Well, he's a rollerblader. He'd probably be the best boy kisser if his memories were not stolen from him. Since that did happen, Chris Haffey is World's Greatest Kisser.
calish4rk
03.03.2010, 21:21
I heard that he makes out with guys!
wow you are a stupid motherfucker are you?
just because I always bring this up in your face do you really need to LIE about me?
you have said it yourself that you kiss dudes , basically you are a fa ggot ... and you then say i do this shit ?
'the fuck is your problem you pussy
wow you are a stupid motherfucker are you?
just because I always bring this up in your face do you really need to LIE about me?
you have said it yourself that you kiss dudes , basically you are a fa ggot ... and you then say i do this shit ?
'the fuck is your problem you pussy
http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_IVI5W8Eg3Gs/SI8lYL-M6jI/AAAAAAAAABE/hJEyACF7rNQ/s320/YouMad.jpg.
jonathan
03.03.2010, 21:29
On a real note.
You do not seem stable right now. It's probably best to stay away from be-mag. You're opening too many doors where the kids on be-mag would have a field day on.
calish4rk
03.03.2010, 21:32
yeah ur a bad freak on a real note
jonathan
03.03.2010, 21:34
I'm sorry for you.
calish4rk
03.03.2010, 21:39
i remember hearing about that video or seeing an ad for it. it was supposed to have all the best tricks and unseen tricks from the vg's and i thought it was supposed to be two separate vids.
Uhm?
If you are for real. It's probably not the same vid...
Uhm after looking for it a long time and basically talking with a lot of people, I concluded it's something way more mysterious than I thought at first.. It's a secret vid .. It has so many weird stuff on it.. It's far from just a rolling video..
If it'd be just a rolling video it would be out a thousand times already.
the guy who showed me is one shady mo-fo .. weirdest fucking dude on earth, or maybe he's just austrian. anyways he lied and still lies about it, making sure i don't get it, BUT showed it to me. Once.
I'd be in a foreign legon 3 years just to remember what was after those 15-20 minutes where I stop having memory about the day. (lol no i wasn't on any drugs, i dont even do hard drugs never done em)
yah man im bored of this shit story, i just would have the vid .. for me.. not like i want to prove anything to people.
i dont even get angry or disappointed if most people dont believe me.. cuz it just sounds retarded.
but its all real yea.. bit long story lol
fast eddie
03.03.2010, 21:39
Daniel, calm down...
read the Haffey interview again, and find your center: http://issuu.com/k2rolla/docs/balance_magazine_issue_1
ez bruv, ez.
jonathan
03.03.2010, 21:44
sounds like the dude slipped you some ruffies and raped you. is that how you lost your memory?
On a real note.
You do not seem stable right now. It's probably best to stay away from be-mag. You're opening too many doors where the kids on be-mag would have a field day on.
+1 I do not feel good about picking you apart.
calish4rk
03.03.2010, 21:54
i just am on the video. i dont have any proof ive lost my memo. with the video i could prove it. i dont know what to think really. id know about it, i cant deny i dont ever remember making that stupid flick. so its all weird. whoever is behind it, it's someone huge. and i dont know what the fuck do i have to do with all this. or where was the point that I see it.
I rly am pretty much a nobody so without it ,I cant understand why they would choose ME to fuck around with so bad. Maybe it just wasn't mean to be shown for a while. Maybe not even until today, dude who showed me it knew i was going nuts after it, so he took the opportunity and he did it, i dont understand what have I done to him to get such a nasty revenge, I just know he was on the video too and was getting ridiculed.
i can't do anything about it
just feel pain. alot of pain.
salomonskater
03.03.2010, 22:11
i dont understand what have I done to him to get such a nasty revenge, I just know he was on the video too and was getting ridiculed.
i can't do anything about it
Maybe you were making fun of him because he couldn't do a 720 fart so he punched you or asked somebody to punch you or something and then you black out.
APhustla
03.03.2010, 22:14
this post rules
Supernintendo Chalmers
03.03.2010, 22:20
i just am on the video. i dont have any proof ive lost my memo. with the video i could prove it. i dont know what to think really. id know about it, i cant deny i dont ever remember making that stupid flick. so its all weird. whoever is behind it, it's someone huge. and i dont know what the fuck do i have to do with all this. or where was the point that I see it.
I rly am pretty much a nobody so without it ,I cant understand why they would choose ME to fuck around with so bad. Maybe it just wasn't mean to be shown for a while. Maybe not even until today, dude who showed me it knew i was going nuts after it, so he took the opportunity and he did it, i dont understand what have I done to him to get such a nasty revenge, I just know he was on the video too and was getting ridiculed.
i can't do anything about it
just feel pain. alot of pain.
listen man, you need to either kill yourself or go see a therapist because your head is beyond fuck. the only way to fix it is death or anti-psychotic medication.
ilayfatdumps
03.03.2010, 22:25
i am so excited about this thread.
Bassimastprime
03.03.2010, 22:28
HAhahaa HOOOOllllYYYYY SHIIIIITT I fuckin love Daniel.
jonathan
03.03.2010, 22:37
Daniel,
I found this link that might link together some of your story, however, it brings more holes to it as well.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brian_Shima
ipunchgirlsinthestomach
04.03.2010, 00:33
I feel bad for him if that's what his life is really like.
1
First we get NJ/Philly kids being little bitches and causing drama and now Daniel is back to full VG Rootz delirium again. Looks like be-mag is back the way it used to be.
jonathan
04.03.2010, 00:59
I guess the new board has finally settled in.
i am so excited about this thread.
<3
Bassimastprime
04.03.2010, 02:06
<3
+1
I bet vg roots really exists and one day he will find it and will be like "told ya, matherfackarzzzz" and everybody is going to be like :shock: shock: :shock: :shock:
January 1st 2012
I called it!
Grand Galactic Inquisitor
04.03.2010, 02:47
im so glad you are back.
WHO LET HIM BACK???? DE-MOD THAT JERK!
Tomselleck
04.03.2010, 03:48
I got the roootz send da moneys
(lol no i wasn't on any drugs, i dont even do hard drugs never done em)
Sure?
Freddy White
04.03.2010, 06:56
Daniel, I like you.
But you should really follow your therapist's instructions, and take your daily pills.
Seriously, I feel bad for anyone actually making fun of you. Stay strong player !
Harry Maynard
04.03.2010, 07:38
Daniel, I like you.
But you should really follow your therapist's instructions, and take your daily pills.
Seriously, I feel bad for anyone actually making fun of you. Stay strong player !
.
WHO LET HIM BACK???? DE-MOD THAT JERK!
And just yesterday I was wondering why rob got de-modded... so dumb.
*ROYALwithCHEESE*
04.03.2010, 07:52
I feel bad for him if that's what his life is really like.
Hes either the funniest human being on the planet and a great character comedian or the guys got problems and will die soon.
http://www.john-zhu.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/comedian.jpg
Hes either the funniest human being on the planet and a great character comedian or the guys got SERIOUS problems
http://www.john-zhu.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/comedian.jpg
qft
calish4rk
05.03.2010, 20:04
Daniel, I like you.
But you should really follow your therapist's instructions, and take your daily pills.
Seriously, I feel bad for anyone actually making fun of you. Stay strong player !
.
you know...
that is the exact shit that markus guy who showed me the vid wanted to achieve.
and boy did he huh?
and btw i dont take anything .. and i dont intend to ..
there wasn't actually 1 second in my life that I doubted anything in this thing...
I don't really blame you or anyone saying what you said, tho you don't know me and u'd see that apart from this vg roots episode i am very normal, some of my friends don't know what to think about it but they sure don't think i am mad.
markus succeded 100% in having his plan succed.
meet. prepare. invite. show video. >>> PROFIT ... my mind> gone.
It's pretty depressing i get called a psycho because of this. It's pretty depressing what I went thru because of this little shit , now did I LOOOSEEEE big time against that austrian bitch? yup , horrible fail on my part in handling the situation. I can just wonder
Haha pretty funny that in my mind i am the only one that can see the real truth about this and how i got manipulated epicly, movie-style like.
cmon why would I lie about it, if it was a psychotic episode i would admit. surely I can't think straight the same fucking bullshit for like 7 years now! 2003 nov seen it, and now is 2010.
it's very hard to just hallucinate whatever, imagine etc all this shit , really impossible. how hard is to understand that it was CAMERA footage , nothing shocks me. I GET BORED OF MOST MOVIES IN FEW MINUTES. For years the attention span for anything on TV was VERY low, just because i started hating tv in 99/00 so naturally i didnt give a fuck about anything, nothing could get me shocked. But what I saw there got me shocked so hard beyond repair.
all in all , I have lost, another thing that really bugs me is what the hell have done to this guy in the past. he was on the video getting ridiculed. while we were watching at the start he was making RIDICULOUS comments about it. When I asked him who is the mamba guy he said 'he's dead' , so many weird stuff he said. Just a few days after he already ignored the fact that i was asking him about the kid.
When I came back to slovenia confused he told my mother we watched a video that had someone look like me, but that it still wasn't me. That happened after my mum was asking him why am I so weird?
Anyway fast forward 5 years of begging him to give me it (he is far away from me like 600kms) he starts suddenly saying he's got it, but that the video is called 'vg6'.
ok so he somehow comes to my place where they had a ship. and handles me vg6 repeating it's the only video he has and all that bullshit, unbelievable how much skill this guy got a lying in the face. anyways i knew this was maybe the end with him or something, and i knew this wasn't the vid and told him. anyway i did went to watch vg6 on vhs just hoping id get at least ONE scene from vg roots.
but not, the video was something totally different. and most important there was
When I came back to slovenia confused he told my mother we watched a video that had someone look like me, but that it still wasn't me.
no guy like this in vg6,
so yeah, i know most of you people thought i didnt even see the vid. so just wanted to show you that he actually admitted showing me something weird to other people in my family, so yeah that is the truth and surely not psycho babble.
kewl
DnEhThEnD
05.03.2010, 20:20
VG 20 Roots?
salomonskater
05.03.2010, 20:20
Daniel, I believe you, seriously. However, don't get your life scrapped from this, no matter if you find the video or not.
DnEhThEnD
05.03.2010, 20:26
I want to believe
Turnip Head
05.03.2010, 20:28
Honestly, if you edited out all the rollerblading stuff, you could make this into one hell of a marketable story.
anton_mr
05.03.2010, 20:41
Honestly, if you edited out all the rollerblading stuff, you could make this into one hell of a marketable story.
You can make a bank seriously, you can even keep rollerblading in, have some risky film director film it and save rollerblading.
The way you talk about and how you believe every bit of it makes it sureal and interesting, you actually got me to read this thread.
You can be either a great troll or a very weird person. Whatever, don't base your life on this thing.
Freddy White
06.03.2010, 06:34
if it was a psychotic episode i would admit.
The thing with psychotic episodes is that most of the times, the subject isn't aware he's having one of these "episodes".
Whatever Daniel, I just hope you don't ruin your life for a stupid video tape, whether it be real or not. You seemed to have a lot of great cards to play in this life, you should keep on focusing on music and other things instead. Good luck, live a happy life !
The thing with psychotic episodes is that most of the times, the subject isn't aware he's having one of these "episodes".
Whatever Daniel, I just hope you don't ruin your life for a stupid video tape, whether it be real or not. You seemed to have a lot of great cards to play in this life, you should keep on focusing on music and other things instead. Good luck, live a happy life !
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