Has anyone read this?! (mamba)

[T!M]

http://moonglow359mamba.vox.com/libr...from-hope.html

[cminor]

Yeah I read 1/3 of it when I was trying to figure out which one of you freaks was stalking me.

[Gonzalo]

So yeah right now, I was thinking about my state of mind that had a bunch of hope in the past.


SO , I won't be much going on about vg roots right now, but just wanted to write this down:


I used to be full of hope and happiness in actually finding the video.
Was pretty confident for YEARS that I'm gonna get it, somehow , by myself, like looking on it on the internet.
The stupid phrase that someone told me ages ago was 'Everything is on the internet, what is not , it doesn't exist'
I used this motto for a year.
I actually started searching for it in 2005. After around 1.2 year of having Markus repeatedly letting me down about it, always shit like ' I can't find it' 'Next time I'm in Slovenia I'll bring it' , so at that time I was completely hypnotized by this event (seeing the video). My main goal in life was this, as tbh, I thought I won't need to do anything in life anymore. What I saw was sooo soo amazing and incredible, I knew if this was going out It'd be huge , just huge. But yeah lol, what a huge fuck up by my side!
Took me around 3 years to understand , that NOBODY has this video, or better nobody that has it will give it to me out of the blue. A huge waste of time. But there was hope. I knew it was going to change my life completely so the vision of obtaining the video was so much in my head imprinted i could not get it out no way.
But yeah with time I saw absolutely nobody knows this video,nobody has it. Secret is the word.
IT feels teeeeeeeeeerrible to be part of this.




My soul is crying, my heart is bleeding, I got manipulated , backstabbed by people whom I trusted.


The hope is slowly fading away. Even if it never dies, even if I'll think about it everyday, nothing will change.
There was still a feeling of 'going to happen' when the event wasn't that far away 'timely speaking'. The memories were much more fresh and my underconscience was completely not with me, but there inside me having the video stored.


I did something wrong, I have no idea who is behind it.


I wish this would never happen


you know, my life is a huge fail since I've seen that video, and I all blame it on that stupid motherfucker from Austria.
How fucking cruel. What have I done to him????


Honestly those years, 2003. When we went for Wien, the feeling was so so weird all the time, like there is something going to happen. Probably the most intense month in my life. Everything was so fucking weird, the general feel was like somekind of 'new horizons'.


This is sooooo soo much eating me inside, and it hurts me that I'm so alone in knowing the truth.


Deep inside me I think it is meant to be that I'll get to know the truth someday.












so yeah....


sup sup.


What I wanted to say is , that the hope is fading away ! So I now just think how badly I got screwed.
Just thinking 'holy shit it's been 7 years since I've seen it, 7 fucking years and still the thing is my mind'


FML, seriously.


sso..


On the other side trying to sort my life.


But yeah hah, it's all connected. How can you actually function normally after all this stupid shit?
You have to, nobody cares about your story.
Your doc thinks you're mad and your story is just like some other skitzo story they've heard over the years.




Sup bro?


Srsly. I don't blame anyone not believing or understanding. But it's wrong.


Man I'm going to do something about it.
I'm going to get the new number of M. and call him again and just repeat the same shit 'sup with the video'.


I'll go work anything just to get the money to try do something legally about it, even if it sounds like a huge utopia.


I was so much a dIFFERENT person before going to Austria!












VG ROOTS




s...


Going to sort it out, keep fighting, not give up. More the time goes by, MORE EPIC THE DAY WILL BE WHEN THE TRUTH WILL BE OUT.


I am though motherfucker dude, if you thought I was going to kill myself or whatever thing , you're wrong. I am still here and I'll get the truth, and when I'll have the truth, you will be in HUGE huge trouble. You will pay.

Hilariously insane

[-Fifty50-]

I feel bad for him if that's what his life is really like.

[salomonskater]

I bet vg roots really exists and one day he will find it and will be like "told ya, matherfackarzzzz" and everybody is going to be like shock:

[jonathan]

Yeah I read 1/3 of it when I was trying to figure out which one of you freaks was stalking me.

... you should probably stop talking to him.

[Devon Avant]

i remember hearing about that video or seeing an ad for it. it was supposed to have all the best tricks and unseen tricks from the vg's and i thought it was supposed to be two separate vids.

[cminor]

... you should probably stop talking to him.

I did.
I'm exaggerating when I say stalking.
It was still weird though.

[:bran^don:]

best post 2010

[Shhwing4]

it is just a fucking video. he should learn not to care about material possessions (sp) not saying that i don't, but it is making him a coo coo

[calish4rk]

i was just bored so i typed that down

and c minor we dont really talk do we. its like i hit u up 2 or 3 times cuz i thought its weird u are the gf of that stupid freak called jonathan haha

go put something in ur ass again .. lawl

GAY

fuck you it's real... i've seen it.

[cminor]

i was just bored so i typed that down

and c minor we dont really talk do we. its like i hit u up 2 or 3 times cuz i thought its weird u are the gf of that stupid freak called jonathan haha

go put something in ur ass again .. lawl

GAY

fuck you it's real... i've seen it.

You're the one who typed me cryptic messages about my hair.
That's fucking weird.

[Turnip Head]

I've been reading House of Leaves.

VG Roots is essentially The Navidson Record. Madness is going to consume us all.

[Kent]

I heard that he makes out with guys!

[Turnip Head]

I heard that he makes out with guys!

Well, he's a rollerblader. He'd probably be the best boy kisser if his memories were not stolen from him. Since that did happen, Chris Haffey is World's Greatest Kisser.

[calish4rk]

I heard that he makes out with guys!

wow you are a stupid motherfucker are you?

just because I always bring this up in your face do you really need to LIE about me?

you have said it yourself that you kiss dudes , basically you are a fa ggot ... and you then say i do this shit ?

'the fuck is your problem you pussy

[Kent]

wow you are a stupid motherfucker are you?

just because I always bring this up in your face do you really need to LIE about me?

you have said it yourself that you kiss dudes , basically you are a fa ggot ... and you then say i do this shit ?

'the fuck is your problem you pussy

.

[jonathan]

On a real note.

You do not seem stable right now. It's probably best to stay away from be-mag. You're opening too many doors where the kids on be-mag would have a field day on.

[calish4rk]

yeah ur a bad freak on a real note

[jonathan]

I'm sorry for you.